Thread🪡 #2 (The 1st of Many; In-Person Immersions)
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It’s the Tuesday after our first group polarity weekend immersion and my brain is slowly coming back from mush. A mix of exhaustion, God-full giving, and the absolute bliss of serving 20 humans to the max. It wasn’t the first immersion we’ve ever done. Allan’s been doing this kind of work for years. We’ve led a weekend together for a private client couple in 2023. And Courtney and I have been holding women in online containers for about a decade. So it wasn’t the first in general, and we’ve been studying our butts off with our teachers, but it was the first in this most epic configuration. Allan was the lead. Courtney and I co-led. And it was woah. I don’t know if my words could ever do it justice. But I’ll write.
I’ll write to tell you something I’m proud of; something I celebrated myself for at the end of the 3 days with the team. I was really relaxed the whole time. In trust. In pleasure. In my feminine juice. I was relaxed. And let me tell youuuuuu… this is such an accomplishment. Unintegrated and letting my wounding run loose.. I’d be a mess. It was an old pattern to not trust my channel and to go into my masculine for structure and stability when serving. To stress about “getting it right” and to put way too much energy into “what they will think of me”. But with practice, intention, group effort, my man, and leaning into the truth… there was nothing but safety to be myself.
I have a lot to thank Allan for. He’s really ushering me into this whole new level of leadership. Where I can lean on his direction, trust he’s got the logistics, and hang on his word. From that place, there’s nothing but feeling the field, being in my practice, and giving from my depths. I know that as I continue to lead from this level of trust… it’s going to build my feminine leadership up in the most delectable way. Where at some point, it won’t be about leaning on and trusting him… but simply God. Courtney felt it as well. So much gratitude for this man… that we could actually be in our feminine while leading a group of 20- is a miracle.
I’ll tell you something. Over the past decade, I’ve been obsessed with figuring out the ins and outs of online business. One of the reasons is because it’s been such a great opportunity to play in business through my feminine essence. In my own timing. In my own desire. Without too strict of a schedule. Of my own making. And so, I haven’t really put myself out there to hold my humans in the flesh. It’s not that I didn’t want to do in-person work, but I ran with online work because it was a way to nourish my nervous system and heal from chronic conditions while scaling my business to infinity.. and that’s an important aspect of service for me: the growth.
And yet, there’s been a missing nutrient for me- and it’s the nutrient of getting to see, touch, and feel my clients in real time.A nutrient received, and a nutrient that will continue to grow in this life.
We’ve already got 2 more immersions on the map. 1 for women in March and the next co-ed polarity and intimacy immersion in May. Hallelujah. Half of the room has even already signed up for the next! (You can post a comment below if you’d like to snag your spot).
The fucking breakthroughs, baby..
There was a couple who’s been married for 10 years, saying they’ve never experienced more intimacy than at our event.
A woman, who cried buckets of grief, processing the death of her former husband.
A sister, who healed a layer of her relationship to men by being held immaculately with so much care.
A man who realized that it’s time to stop “healing” and instead it’s time to start growing.
The comment that it’s the first time he didn’t feel depressed in many moons.
Identities broken down and recreated.
Hard shells collapsed and replaced with surrender.
Anger, rage, and grief sent out of the body to be repurposed by God.
Clarity on triggers and relationship dynamics.
It. Was. Exquisite.
And it was not the last.
So, here’s what I want to start a thread on, with you.
When was the last time you let yourself go on a retreat to be led into liberation? What do you feel is the impact of being in-person, in a world that’s so focused on being behind the screen?
Thread🪡 #2 (The 1st of Many; In-Person Immersions)
Thread🪡 #2 (The 1st of Many; In-Person Immersions)
Thread🪡 #2 (The 1st of Many; In-Person Immersions)
It’s the Tuesday after our first group polarity weekend immersion and my brain is slowly coming back from mush. A mix of exhaustion, God-full giving, and the absolute bliss of serving 20 humans to the max. It wasn’t the first immersion we’ve ever done. Allan’s been doing this kind of work for years. We’ve led a weekend together for a private client couple in 2023. And Courtney and I have been holding women in online containers for about a decade. So it wasn’t the first in general, and we’ve been studying our butts off with our teachers, but it was the first in this most epic configuration. Allan was the lead. Courtney and I co-led. And it was woah. I don’t know if my words could ever do it justice. But I’ll write.
I’ll write to tell you something I’m proud of; something I celebrated myself for at the end of the 3 days with the team. I was really relaxed the whole time. In trust. In pleasure. In my feminine juice. I was relaxed. And let me tell youuuuuu… this is such an accomplishment. Unintegrated and letting my wounding run loose.. I’d be a mess. It was an old pattern to not trust my channel and to go into my masculine for structure and stability when serving. To stress about “getting it right” and to put way too much energy into “what they will think of me”. But with practice, intention, group effort, my man, and leaning into the truth… there was nothing but safety to be myself.
I have a lot to thank Allan for. He’s really ushering me into this whole new level of leadership. Where I can lean on his direction, trust he’s got the logistics, and hang on his word. From that place, there’s nothing but feeling the field, being in my practice, and giving from my depths. I know that as I continue to lead from this level of trust… it’s going to build my feminine leadership up in the most delectable way. Where at some point, it won’t be about leaning on and trusting him… but simply God. Courtney felt it as well. So much gratitude for this man… that we could actually be in our feminine while leading a group of 20- is a miracle.
I’ll tell you something. Over the past decade, I’ve been obsessed with figuring out the ins and outs of online business. One of the reasons is because it’s been such a great opportunity to play in business through my feminine essence. In my own timing. In my own desire. Without too strict of a schedule. Of my own making. And so, I haven’t really put myself out there to hold my humans in the flesh. It’s not that I didn’t want to do in-person work, but I ran with online work because it was a way to nourish my nervous system and heal from chronic conditions while scaling my business to infinity.. and that’s an important aspect of service for me: the growth.
And yet, there’s been a missing nutrient for me- and it’s the nutrient of getting to see, touch, and feel my clients in real time. A nutrient received, and a nutrient that will continue to grow in this life.
We’ve already got 2 more immersions on the map. 1 for women in March and the next co-ed polarity and intimacy immersion in May. Hallelujah. Half of the room has even already signed up for the next! (You can post a comment below if you’d like to snag your spot).
The fucking breakthroughs, baby..
There was a couple who’s been married for 10 years, saying they’ve never experienced more intimacy than at our event.
A woman, who cried buckets of grief, processing the death of her former husband.
A sister, who healed a layer of her relationship to men by being held immaculately with so much care.
A man who realized that it’s time to stop “healing” and instead it’s time to start growing.
The comment that it’s the first time he didn’t feel depressed in many moons.
Identities broken down and recreated.
Hard shells collapsed and replaced with surrender.
Anger, rage, and grief sent out of the body to be repurposed by God.
Clarity on triggers and relationship dynamics.
It. Was. Exquisite.
And it was not the last.
So, here’s what I want to start a thread on, with you.
When was the last time you let yourself go on a retreat to be led into liberation? What do you feel is the impact of being in-person, in a world that’s so focused on being behind the screen?